I heard a quote recently, “I don’t have friends, I have family.” I love the idea of that—for with family, there is this idea that no matter what—you’re for each other, and you have each other’s back.
I feel like that about my close friends. However, friendships can and do change as people can and do change. I have been blessed to have long-term friends. However, I have also lost friendships.
When I was a new mom, and had just moved to town, I made a group of 4 friends. We met every week to talk and pray together. One of those friends was Becky Crain, who we would all lose–as she passed to eternity. Two of those friends I would lose to personality differences. One of those friends I would lose touch with over time.
Later in life, I would lose a friend after my son Sean died, however, if I’m honest, things had been difficult even before Sean died.
When I first experienced these losses, it was devastating for me. I would go back over the series of events, and wish I could have a do over—so that I would not have to go through the loss of that friendship—as if the friendship was completely dependent on me, and what I did or did not do.
In reality, there were many factors that led to the relationship being over.
I’m reminded of Paul and Barnabas’ situation found in Acts 15: 36-41. Paul and Barnabas traveled together to spread the gospel. They were friends and ministry partners. They took John Mark, (who would go on to write the book of Mark), with them–and John Mark left them in the middle of one of their journeys and went home. John Mark regretted doing this, and asked for another chance to go with them again. Paul did not want to take him. Barnabas did. In the end, Paul and Barnabas separated and went in different directions. Barnabas took John Mark with him.
When I first read that account, I was so sad, that Paul and Barnabas could not agree, and separated paths with each other.
However, with time, I saw that by separating—they were able to cover more territory to share the gospel. By separating–John Mark was able to see that there were consequences for his actions, and so take his commitments more seriously, and yet he also experienced grace through Barnabas.
Later in his ministry, Paul would send for John Mark. 2 Tim 4:11 There was healing in their relationship and in their ministry together.
So what’s my point? My point is that God can use these differences and separations in our lives.
God used these losses in my life, to keep my eyes fixed on Him. God was to be my God—and I was to live for His pleasure and His approval—not for another person’s.
I still love the people with whom I am no longer friends. I still pray for them and for their families. God gave me the gift of their friendship for a time; He had a purpose for that friendship for a time—-and I am grateful for them.
Lately, I’ve been aware of a friendship changing, and I’ve been praying, “God, my worth and significance are in You, and not this person. Thus, I have an open hand. I place this friendship in Your hands. Do with it what You wish.” Will I be sad, if the friendship ends? Absolutely! Do I want the friendship to end? No, I do not. But whether the relationship ends or not—I know that my relationship with God will never end. It is an eternal relationship—for He has promised He will never leave me or forsake me. Hebrews 13:5
So in response I say: “Whom do I have in heaven but You, and besides You, I desire nothing on earth.” Psalm 73:25
May We Be Encouraged!
















