God has been telling me to write about the Holy Spirit. I feel like one of those old-time prophets who is told by God to communicate something that they feel unqualified to speak about. When I asked God what to write, He brought to mind a letter that my friend Becki, who died of cancer, sent out to friends who had been praying for her. Actually, her husband sent out the letter, after Becki died, and he shared some of her thoughts with us.
I share these thoughts, because to me—they express the work of the Holy Spirit in a way that is real and living.
These are Becki’s words— edited a little for greater readability – while hopefully not losing any of their meaning:
Becky shared these thoughts when she was in Germany receiving treatment for cancer, and it was becoming apparent that cancer was winning, and she was physically dying.
“this spiritual battle, this spiritual journey, is not anything like what I thought it would be. I thought I would feel victorious. I though I would be able to live beyond the pain – maybe not even feel the pain – because I was so much living in the spirit.
Isn’t that why it’s hard? I don’t want to read my bible, I don’t want to pray, but God is so good, He hasn’t let me go. If He wasn’t so good, He and I would have parted ways early in this battle, because I’ve often felt, I don’t want this.
I just want to be a nice Christian woman, at home with her children, being a good wife and mother.
But God hasn’t let me go, He hasn’t turned aside and said, “Ok, I’ll work on somebody more faithful.”
I’m finding that my spiritual growth isn’t dependent on me at all, it’s dependent on Him alone.”
That last line expresses the ministry of the Holy Spirit in a nutshell. This is it. It is not dependent on us at all, it is dependent on God alone.
This is what Jesus means when he says (in John 15:5) : “I am the vine, you are the branches, he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from me, you can do nothing.”
The branches grow fruit because they are connected to the vine. They don’t have to grunt and strain and strive—they just have to be connected.
So the big question—how are we connected?
I would like to fully explore this question in my next blog.
In the meantime, let these thoughts encourage us—
Our God will not leave us, He will stay with us every step of the way. He stayed with Becky every step of the way. He is holding us up, when we can not stand. Becki shared some verses to a song with us in this last letter. I would like to share that song with you. It’s an old song, but it expressed Becki’s heart:
May we be encouraged!!