Month ago, I wrote about going through a time of being shaken. In case you wondered—that time is still going on, and the shaking grows worse. Sometimes I wonder if I am going to survive. I find myself crying often. I don’t even wear eye makeup anymore. What is the point? It will just get cried off.
So, what is to be done? That’s just the thing—the circumstances are ones that I have no control over. None. They involve loved ones and their choices, and their illnesses. So, I pray, I grieve, I speak truth and love into situations, hoping to comfort and encourage, and bless. I serve, I give, but I have absolutely no control.
None whatsoever. I know that I am facing the reality that I will lose people I love here on this earth. I know that I am facing others ruining and wrecking their lives here on this earth.
So what is to be done? Do I rail at God—hoping my anger, and my ire will motivate Him to move!!
Do I rail at the circumstances, hoping my anger will change the circumstances?
Do I pray, and pray, and pray, hoping my prayers will change the circumstances? Yes—this is what I opt to do. What I am finding, is that my prayers are not changing the circumstances—but I am changing.
I am changing from anger to acceptance. I am changing from despair to hope. Not hope that everything will turn out the way I want it to turn out—but hope that God will prevail over the darkness. It is a hope that persists in spite of the circumstances. It is a hope that is quiet and deep and stays.
It’s source is from God—so it is an immovable hope—or as Bill Sweeney, fellow blogger said, “An Unshakeable Hope.” One of the blogs that Bill wrote, that I read this morning, is “One Day At A Time.” Bill was diagnosed with ALS and had it for over 20 years before he passed away over a year ago. I find the words of those who have suffered here on this earth and finished their races well—comfort me during my own suffering. So here is the link to this blog: https://unshakablehope.com/2013/07/29/one-day-at-a-time-2/ I hope it helps you as it did me.
May you be encouraged!!
Encouragement for you!! 
The place of being out of control is a gift from God–this is a lesson I’ve been learning for so long. The Lord is bigger than my hopes and expectations, so my solutions never measure up to His. I just wish I could move there quicker, without questioning His wisdom. I empathize with where you are–you care about others with such depth that it’s hard to see anyone suffer needlessly. But we have no control. Love you, Katers.
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Thank you for your sweet words of comfort.
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I loved when you said that “you are being changed”. I’m learning this lesson, too. The more we seek the Healer instead of the healing, the closer we get to the Prince of Peace that give us Hope in Him.
I am so thankful that God is using Bill’s words to bring you comfort. This blog you mentioned was one of my favorites, too. Praying for you today.
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Mary–Wow!! You need to write–your words–seeking the Healer instead of the healing–that is so good, and encapsulates the what God has been trying to teach me all my life!! Thank you!! FYI So thankful for you, and your husband, and how God ministers through you to the Body.
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Thanks, Katie! You are such an encourager. Your blogs minister to me as well.
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Thank you for your gracious words Mary. I am praying for you today. God bless you!!
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