Our Family decorated our Christmas Tree this week. Our son’s family came over, we made hot cocoa, with real whipping cream and marshmallows. Some of us like both at the same time!!
This was the first year we had two Christmas trees—to hold all the decorations.
My grandchildren were excited and enthusiastic!! Oh, what a joy they were to watch, as they decorated the tree!
Yet, this was one of the hardest years since my son Sean died, to stay in the moment, and stand in the joy of the moment.
Grief threatened every moment to overwhelm me, and some moments it did. Some moments, I could not stop the tears from flowing.
When I was putting up the ornaments with my family—I wanted to escape the pain and the grief so badly—I wanted to run away. Instead, God presence was very tangible to me. He told me He was with me and that He would not leave me. He urged me to “Stay in the Moment”, and not escape.
A song, called Keep Me In The Moment by Jeremy Camp—has become my mantra during this time to remind me of what the Holy Spirit has been whispering in my ear. The Refrain to this song goes:
“Keep me in the moment, Help me live with my eyes wide open, ‘Cause I don’t wanna miss what you have for me.. Singing oh Lord, show me what matters, Throw away what I’m chasing after, ‘Cause I don’t wanna miss what you have for me.”
I hope this message encourages you, and I hope this song will encourage you as it has encouraged me—to stay in the moment—so we don’t miss all that God has for us!! Let’s Be Encouraged!!
I am so sorry you’re having a tough time Katie…..
I know how hard it is to stay in the moment……but I have no idea what it’s like to lose a son. I am sending prayers and hugs to help you find joy.
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Thank you sweet Amy!! Love you!!
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I am sorry this is such a tough and rough one. Today is the 18th year of my dad’s passing…grief still washes over me at times in unrelenting torrents. Take the time you need to grieve. Again and again, making that tear soup! It is a tricky balance to not stuff everything down, not live in the past and not enjoy the moment of “now”. Praying for you my sweet friend.
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Oh Penny–I love that you reminded me of that book–Tear Soup–to take the time to grieve, to remember and to process. Especially this time of year, when memories flood my mind. Miss you sweet friend!!
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You are heroic carrying on after the death of your son. I see you, Katie. I see your bravery. I see your faith and love keeping you safe.
I send you so much love!
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Thank you so for all your words of encouragement!!! And for sending your love—I send you mine–right back!! 🙂
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Thank you! ❤
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